NEW: Joker cards
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September 17, 2019, 202 アンサー
See, im sure no one cares, im just one member, and my loss to totem will be exactly nothing really, im just one person. Bit i hionestly feel i should just uinstall thios software again, and forget about it. I did exactly that over a period of 2 years. when i started too experince quality of life degredation due toi my obsessive behavour, got too spend more and more too have them medels, all of them. You have to either have an addiction, or know someone whos facing an addiction to understand, to get it, too others im just a stupoid idiot who has no common sence.. But addictive behavour dont work that way. One very inconsiderate and rude member decided to call me these things, while im not a vendictive person i still dotn feel that right, kicking someone when they are down out of pure ignorance.
After a break, gaining perspective and help from Gambling support groups, and a handle on my problem, i came back, with money, lots of it, i was willing, and comfortable to spend catching up on collection, after which i quite successfuly maintained a subcription of sorts, an allowance of 30usd every two weeks, too pay for any upcoming cards. That means nothign to anyone im sure, but too me it was a triumph over my very real problems. Then totem months and months later started with the slot machines, that was a test, fine i wont ven look at any of the "shopping" or "news" tabs over the weekend. I am fine with that, honesly dodnt even open the client very often, but now these gamblking tabs are there ALL the time, they dont go away. And the only way to get this new card is by gambling. as i said, i should just unistall the software, that i enjoy very much, and have doen so very good at controlling my urges.. buit now i feel i am in danger again
I am, sure people with think im just a stupid idiot with no commonsence. but thats just not how addictiove personality disorders work. Its really not. and i thank everyone who does not make value judgments, or personal attcks against me over this.
I wont even bring this up again. last i will say